Midterm slump – 2A

I had to differentiate this term. Seeing as how there is a slump for every term.

I had some surprises this term. In terms of school, they were all bad. I thought I aced my cs245 midterm. It turns out I got a 67%. It seems I just didn’t understand one of the main questions.

While the grades are not released, I honestly feel like I failed my cs246 midterm. I actually left about half of the midterm blank, and I am not too confident about the stuff that I wrote down.

I’m pulling an allnighter on a Sunday night/ Monday morning so that I can get my schedule back on track. I am currently sitting in the big mac labs in MC. There is one other dude in here, he looks like he was masturbating a few moments ago. Now he is cutting his nails. Gross.

Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday
Hunt   OSAP See advisor   MATH 235   See counsellor   STAT 230   Ranking due 2pm   245 TUT 235 TUT       HvZ Read Ch1	CODE A2   Review A1-3 Read Ch2 Read Ch3	230- Wing it!   Review A4 Read Ch3 Read Ch4	245 Due                         Read Ch4     CS CODE FEST	246 Due Review A4-7

I am not going to use the invincible spell because I have no faith in myself this time.

Learning to love

I am learning to love Computer Science. Slowly.

It is a love-hate relationship. I feel more and more discouraged at the beginning. But the feeling of enlightenment upon finding the solution is priceless. This feeling has not changed since grade 10. It is a great reminder of why I chose to go into CS.
Thank you.

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The term is in progress. I have my worries, but I am more mellow this term. Chaos is brewing, but I feel pretty calm.

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I had my first (real) interview. I fell very confident about it. I think I could have done better had I focused on the things I already knew prior to the interview.

Funny enough, although I did not get the job, I have absolutely no regrets. I learned a lot from this interview. It was a positive experience. I stayed true to myself and took risks (this risk did not contribute to my failure to secure the position). Prior to being paged, I spent 20 minutes debating on whether to bring my yearbook with me, or how I should bring it without looking unprofessional.
In the end, I decided to hold my head high and walk in with the yearbook unhidden. If there was a chance for me to showcase my work, then I will accept it along with its consequences.
Even if my yearbook did not help me, or made me look unprofessional, I still believe I made the right choice.

On being lonely

A new term is starting.

 

Seeing the first years wondering around made me realize something.

 

I am afraid of being lonely.

 

I never thought about this. But I was never alone. The only time when I was without friends, I ended up withdrawing from school.

 

I have always treasured friendship. I never underestimated the power of my friends and the comfort that they provided.

But I never thought I would be so lonely.

Utilities Wishlist.

Sadly, my Teflon pot died a few weeks ago. Death by scratching. For the sake of the apartment’s health, it is now retired.

I loved that pot. It was the first piece of serious cookware that I purchased by myself. I was always careful of with it, but things like this happen. I will move on and start over.

 

 

Moving on. I noticed that I am always in need of a few items that I do not have possession of. I will write all of it down here as a wish list.

1.  A face towel. I’m tired of carrying around a bath towel whenever I need something to dry myself.
2. A shallow, non-stick. Something sturdy, that CAN handle scratches
3. A bigger bowl. I have one, but one isn’t enough.
4. A dutch oven. My soup/broiling nightmares will be over.

New hobby

75% of the apartment is now into polymer clay sculpting.

But before that, here are some shots from earlier last week. I woke up After pulling another all-nighter, I was greeted with a foggy morning.

This is the most amount of fog I have seen in at least twelve years.

warning, the above images were not resized. Gigantic images awaits if you click.

Cubnime, 2011 Revival

 

I hope it’s a revival.

I had a lot of fun making this layout 3 years ago. Unfortunately, it was never completed and therefore never made it to the (now defunct) shinjuu.net server.

 

I just set up the layout and index page. Unfortunately, it does not seem like I can do php scripts with my current hosting. But I will find a loop hole around it!

 I realize it’s redundant to censor my exact hosting location. But I don’t think anyone will try too hard to search for this site. And therefore I can have some bit of anonymity retained.

Young heart

I had have a crush on my math teacher.

I am taking a break from studying for my CS 136 midterm.

My math teacher always intrigued me. He entered my high school as a teacher the same year I became a freshman. Although I did not talk to him until my senior year, I was always intrigued by him. He was good looking, and his background was very interesting. I was naturally drawn to him.

I still remember nodding to him shyly as we crossed each other in his hall way. My heart would skip a beat whenever he nods back. Maybe it was the big cart he was pushing around, but at an early stage, I could tell that he was geeky. My curiosity was peeked.

Victoria Day 2011

I haven’t done this in a long time.

Nods go to the Alien, and Kaitou-Al. Thank you for a great night!

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On a side note. I changed the header image for the blog. It is now Kero-Chan.

 

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2011-06-06 edit:

I DON’T KNOW MY OWN FRIEND’S NAME

OTL OTL

Still cannot talk about it

It’s weird. Every time I try to sit down, and record what happened in 2009-10, words just seem to escape me.

I would sit down, but have nothing to type. Which is not true, because I have a lot to say about that year. Even though a year has gone by, there are many emotional scars left from that year.

But on the other hand, there are many  things that I want to remember from this year. The new experiences I gain by bumming around. The people I have met. I want to write down all of the good things too. With time, I am worried that memories might fade, and I may gradually forget these people and experiences. I want to treasure these moments that I cannot express.

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It’s late. I should sleep and dream about combinatorics.

First year completed!

I finished my first year as a university student.

It only too me two years.  

I just wanted to update my blog. I have a desire to keep it going, but there are many things getting in the way.